Day 3 I am the artist of my life

artist of my life, 100 day project, positive self-talk

Day 3 – 100 Days of Positive Self-Talk: I am the artist of my life!

I am the artist of my life and my life is messy. Imperfect. Colorful. 

I am starting this year and this 100 day project by embracing the mess and trusting that I can create exactly what I want and need in each moment.

My palette is full of possibility, the canvas is blank, I am creating a new me. 

As I look at the canvas of myself, I release layers and drafts and failed attempts to create what I want. I gesso right over the past to create a clean slate today.

If I am truly the artist of my life, what will I paint on this canvas today?

I realized that I spend a lot of time looking at my faults and failures as it relates to my weight and body issues. I judge myself harshly and treat myself more like an enemy than a beloved.

As with art, it takes practice to get it right. I am not looking for overnight success. I am looking for longevity and a way of being in the world that centers around treating myself with immense compassion and loving-kindness.

I have spent a lot of time saying and writing affirmations, without real change. What was missing was getting to the core of why I feel this way and why I judge myself so harshly so I could release old stories and limiting beliefs.

What I discovered is that words weren’t what I needed – I needed the visual imagery of painting and collage to be able to release buried feelings and thoughts that were no longer serving me. Here’s one of the paintings that came out of that experience.

I have so much compassion and love for the child who felt abandoned, unloved and never good enough. I can see now that she needs my love. I need my love.

I commit to seeing myself through eyes of loving-kindness every day – in the mirror, on the canvas, on the journal page and as I go about my daily activities.

I commit to feeding and nurturing and exercising all aspects of my physical, mental and spiritual bodies.

As I bring that compassion and love to the canvas, I paint myself beautiful, vibrant, healthy and strong. 

I am the artist of my life today and every day.

What will you paint on the blank canvas of yourself in 2020?

Did you miss day 2? Read it here.

Posted in

6 Comments

  1. Carrie on January 3, 2020 at 9:19 am

    This is beautiful! I love that you’ve identified that you need the art. I am a wordy, and I need the words. They free me. They change me. They inspire me. It’s awe-inspiring to me that we can all need the same things and yet receive them in different mediums.

    • minette on January 5, 2020 at 12:23 pm

      Love your reflection on how words inspire you!

  2. Alana on January 3, 2020 at 3:29 pm

    I don’t know what I will paint yet, but it is going to have a lot to do with retirement (which is forthcoming in several months) – a chance to both embrace the old, and also embrace the new.

    • minette on January 5, 2020 at 12:23 pm

      Ooohhh, retirement. That’s a big transition. Can’t wait to see what you create Alana.

  3. Anna Maria Junus on January 4, 2020 at 6:34 am

    The arts, whether they be painting, writing, acting, dancing, music, or soemthing else, is our soul food.

    • minette on January 5, 2020 at 12:24 pm

      Soul Food, yum! So true Anna Maria!

Leave a Comment