Day 3 – 100 Days of Positive Self-Talk: I am the artist of my life!

I am the artist of my life and my life is messy. Imperfect. Colorful. 

I am starting this year and this 100 day project by embracing the mess and trusting that I can create exactly what I want and need in each moment.

My palette is full of possibility, the canvas is blank, I am creating a new me. 

As I look at the canvas of myself, I release layers and drafts and failed attempts to create what I want. I gesso right over the past to create a clean slate today.

If I am truly the artist of my life, what will I paint on this canvas today?

I realized that I spend a lot of time looking at my faults and failures as it relates to my weight and body issues. I judge myself harshly and treat myself more like an enemy than a beloved.

As with art, it takes practice to get it right. I am not looking for overnight success. I am looking for longevity and a way of being in the world that centers around treating myself with immense compassion and loving-kindness.

I have spent a lot of time saying and writing affirmations, without real change. What was missing was getting to the core of why I feel this way and why I judge myself so harshly so I could release old stories and limiting beliefs.

What I discovered is that words weren’t what I needed – I needed the visual imagery of painting and collage to be able to release buried feelings and thoughts that were no longer serving me. Here’s one of the paintings that came out of that experience.

I have so much compassion and love for the child who felt abandoned, unloved and never good enough. I can see now that she needs my love. I need my love.

I commit to seeing myself through eyes of loving-kindness every day – in the mirror, on the canvas, on the journal page and as I go about my daily activities.

I commit to feeding and nurturing and exercising all aspects of my physical, mental and spiritual bodies.

As I bring that compassion and love to the canvas, I paint myself beautiful, vibrant, healthy and strong. 

I am the artist of my life today and every day.

What will you paint on the blank canvas of yourself in 2020?

Did you miss day 2? Read it here.